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October 1st, 2004

02:04 am - studying rocket science is more fun when you actually have rockets... I really, really want to start making this a habit. it's funny though, because i've managed to blow off "seriously" writing this american lit. paper, yet have managed to make two lengthy posts here on live journal. how ironic? nevertheless, today was a good day. i started it out on the right side of bed at just about the right time (11:45 i believe it was) and went to work to bust my ass for four hours straight. we were getting the floors done so i had to move like 460 thousand cases off of the storeroom floor in order for the guy to properly do the floors. anyways, 4 rolls around and i scurry off to be bored to tears by another hour and a half lesson on benjamin franklin and deCreveceour...wooooh. after that i came home to argue with my parents over what sort of take-out we were going to get. after much argument, we decided that we would order chinese food and then we were off to the races. i ate some chinese, watched some "joey," and shortly thereafter attempted to continue writing this paper. after an hour or so of writing, i skated over to dave's house and we went out to rent a movie...dave wanted a shark movie, but the only one i was interested in watching featured lou diamond phillips and coolio, so we rented cold creek manor instead. it was a really good film, and be forewarned, you will all love the alternate ending more so than the theatrical version. with that being said, we watched the movie and i skated back to my house...and here i sit. I think now might be the time i attempt to write more of my paper, but i do have to wake up early tomorrow to finish editing in time to air our first edition of "between the lines." oh well, we'll see won't we? 'nite all. Current Mood: okay Current Music: long way from, long time since - the impossibles

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September 30th, 2004

02:21 am - i remember when we used to look at the stars...my neck has never ached so badly... Good evening ladies and germs...it's jeff again....and i believe, and this is a ventured guess, but this would be the first "two in a row" posting i've ever done in my entire lj career. but it's happened, so let's deal with it shall we? today was yet again uneventful...woke up just in time to attend my 12:30pm anatomy and physiology lecture class...woofuckinghoo!!! anyways, i finished my lab work in lecture, and worked an eight-hour shift at good ol' lalli's liquors...i swear to god i will piss in the middle of that store-room floor before i quit. (nah, i kid, it's not really all that bad...just time-consuming). came home, listened to jimmy's ideas for this week's show; all of which were great - especially the fact that we're having "the governator" as a call-in guest...just watch! anyways, we plan on airing the first episode of "between the lines" on friday, october 1st sometime around 1pm on cable channel 13. WATCH IT! please...i'll be your best friend! anyways, other than that i've just been trying to study,throwing some ideas around for my american lit paper that's due next week, and brainstorming more ideas for the upcoming episodes. it's tough being me...i'll tell ya. i've also been looking at places to transfer when i'm done at ccc. rowan is always a possibility, but the more and more i think about it, kean is cheap, nearer to a big city (nyc), and i know a few people there (my cousin, etc). I figure if I didn't get to take my chances with washington, dc., i might as well just fucking hit up nyc. why not, right? i've also listened here and there to some of their online programming and although the topics are rather bland, they seem to be pretty professional and there seem to be opportunities - which equal out to a big plus sign. maybe this is what i need, to just get up and go for it - balls to the wall, ya know? also, i've made a friend who is majoring in pretty much exactly what i want to at Kean, so it seems like a feasible option. the world is my oyster, and i'm feeling fishy...:) Current Mood: good Current Music: am i ready? - spitalfield

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September 28th, 2004

10:55 pm - another day...another dollar... today was...well today was a day, i;ll give it that much. today was spent waking up with a hangover at around 11 am and picking up the phone to call mikey g and apologize for being late. he however, wasn't waiting up for me - which made me feel better. so, i took my time, hurried up and got a shower...waltzed into the tv studio at about 12:30 to find out that we more than likely wouldn't get around to doing much except for exporting footage to final cut. after watching the footage and deciding that it was rather lame and unexciting, i took the walk with mikey to the makeshift bungalow cafeteria and watched him eat a salad. i don't know why i didn't eat, because i was a) hungry as shit, and b) the food was like dirt cheap. in any case, after sitting through an hour of brainstorming with mikey and jimmy about what topics to cover on next week's show, we walked back to the studio and grabbed our stuff. i, with nothing to do for another 3 hours, decided to call the donald and see if wanted to hit up the taco bizell avec moi. he did, and we ate some tacos and conversed about the day's events...or lack thereof. we went back to his house and he burned me a copy of the new anadivine and a small victory albums. the anadivine album is great listening...but for some reason i was in a mood to listen to asv and asv only. odd, i know. so after listening to asv on the way to american lit, and on the way home from american lit, i can surmise in saying that the album is way worth the price i paid... on the girl front --- why can't i have a normal relationship? that is the only question i pose and the only question i know won't get answered...so i'll just throw it out there in hopes that maybe someone will have an answer...i seriously just don't know why...but normal and jeff just do not mix---in the words of lab professor, "...they are immiscible..." Current Mood: cynical Current Music: life on standby - hh

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September 19th, 2004

11:37 pm - well, well, well... Well...I have a lot to talk about....boy do I ever. Remember that chick-magnet van I bought? Yeah....totalled that bad boy a couple weeks ago...bought a new car (a 2004 Hyundai Accent GL)---yeah...I know. Started a new semester at CCC, and thank the heavens above it is my last. After December, I'll have obtained my associate's degree in communications from that rat-hole and will be able to....hmmm....what will i be able to do with that degree?...I never really thought about it....I've come to the conclusion that I am way too trusting when it comes to women...but I think every one of my friends already knew that...(just a shame it took me so long...haha). I've reacquainted myself with some long lost friends of mine, and I'm glad to say that my life is headed in an upwards direction. I'm concentrating more on my music and hope to record my demo in the month ahead. All in all, life is looking pretty tip-top. I met this girl...and I know I start a lot of sentences this way....but seriously - she's amazing. I've never been so blown away by simplicity before in my life. She is so quiet, yet has so many things to say...so predictable, yet so un-predictable...honest...humorous...easy-going.....I don't know...and is she pretty you ask? Incredibly...oh yes...without a doubt. Hopefully she sees in me the same qualites I see in her...and hopefully she won't just be somebody else I talk about in a livejournal post. Hopefully this might be a relationship worth writing about. Only time will tell... ---jeffrey Current Mood: anxious Current Music: just enough to love you - bayside

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August 11th, 2004

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June 10th, 2004

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June 2nd, 2004

12:48 am - it better be ten pages long... Hello once again. Jeffrey here. Not much to state besides the obvious. You're all now looking at a different man. A once sure and certain Jeffrey is now a newly confused yet surprisingly hopeful one. Odd how things turn out...but anyway. My former girlfriend is now off enacting her "need to be alone," and I'm not letting any grass grow under my feet. I just received my letter of acceptance and in turn just sent out my confirmation letter to George Mason University...so yes...I'll be moving to VA in late August. So things are gonna get interesting - to say the least. Other than that, good things have come from my newly discovered "alone time." I started whacking off more - (shit, I have to start controlling that part of my brain that thinks things and keep it in sync with that other part of my brain that says things aloud....oh well...damage done). But no, seriously, I've had more time to see old friends whom I've lost contact with over the past year or so - and also managed to - to my surprise - weed out some of the friends I thought were the closest all along. Funny huh? Regardless, I think that this summer is going to be a growing experience and I think I'll use it as a time to prepare for what my future holds. (AH...WHO THE FUCK AM I KIDDING!!!) I'm just gonna hang out, work to make money to pay for school, and pretty much just kill time...because really, isn't that all life is? Just a constant pursuit of the death of time? I believe so. Nevertheless, I think fun will be had by all this summer and I'll end up proving to my self that life does go on. (Yeah, babe...you said it best...I'll "get over it.") goodnight all... ---jeffrey Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: standing on the edge of summer - thursday

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May 6th, 2004

10:41 am - wtf?....all I have to say...wtf? Ok...in response to that somewhat hopeful post 2 days ago, let me add an entirely opposite one. I had been waiting for Laur to return home for over a month now....and the first order of business when she returned was not to embrace me like I had hoped, but rather to push me away. After nearly 10 months together...she was not ready for a serious relationship. I don't understand why things like this happen to me...but they must happen for a reason. Maybe I don't deserve love, maybe the people I love don't deserve my love...who knows. All I know is that last night was one of the worst nights I have ever experienced ever...period. On a brighter note, I woke up this morning to drag my ass to class and found out I got an 84 and an 85 on both of my Biology tests - which is the only plus I've seen in the past couple days. (sucks, eh?) ---jeffrey "I realize that this time was something that I always knew, Only a fool wouldn’t see. Might as well start my drinking days now if I’m really alone... it's tempting" ---guk Current Mood: crushed Current Music: michelle with one "l" - guk

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May 4th, 2004

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March 9th, 2004

12:37 am - I don't even really know... I haven't had much practice in handling relationships in which your partner lives almost 200 miles away. I would have liked to think that up until today I was making pretty good work of it. I guess not. I suppose maybe I haven't been completely there for Laur in the past week or so...but it's not really my fault. Or is it? I'm the one "fitting her in...fulifilling an obligation." If she only knew how many variations of fucked up I am when I'm not with her, than maybe she'd think twice before saying something like that. She is and has never been in any way an obligation. She's a privelege. But now, somehow, I've turned into someone who doesn't have time for a girl that I'm absolutely struggling to make time for. I work, I go to school. She works, she goes to school. Yet somehow, things have turned into my fault. When she's gone, all I think about is her. So a really busy, stressful week has gone by and we haven't gotten to talk that much...but to go as far as to say that I've been viewing her as an obligation is way too much for me to fucking handle right now. I've been working extra hours to try and be able to take time off when she comes home so I can spend as much time as possible with her. Does that count for anything? No. I have 5 script treatments due by the end of the week (with a rough script draft due on the wednesday during spring break), and I still find time to talk to her, albeit shorter conversations than usual. I would talk to the girl every hour of every day if I didn't have certain other things to do in order to be able to transfer out of this shithole school. The only feelings I feel right now are conufusion and anger. All in all, I just don't know...seriously...I don't even really know. Current Mood: irritated

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February 24th, 2004

12:33 am - where the hell have I been? So yeah, it's been damn near a month or so since I've posted. A ton has happened, and I'm just either too lazy or too busy to take time out and post about it (I think it's that I'm too lazy but that's neither here nor there). Anyway, I went to see Laur on Valentine's Day weekend and had quite literally the time of my life. We went out to eat, stayed in, went to the zoo...we did a little bit of everything and a whole lot of nothing all at the same time. Being with her that weekend made me never want to leave...but it was an inevitability I had to face. So for the past week or so I've been going through the motions, missing her all the while. I was recently talking to my boss and he kept asking me what was wrong, so I shared my feelings about stuff with the guy. I kinda told him exactly what was on my mind. Long story short, my heart isn't in anything I'm doing right now. I'm not happy. I put it to Laur one way...I have the potential of being at a happiness level of 11, but am stuck at 7.5 because I'm not with her. If I was indeed with her, I think the happiness level would rise to heights I've never know possible. You can be the most successful person in the world, but if you're missing a part of yourself, well then you're not that successful are you? boo... I took my lil sis to go see the early november and hip...she had a good time, and I felt like I actually did a good big brother deed, so it was a rewarding experience all around. I also discovered a band called Socratic that everyone should listen to (they'll soon be signed to drive thru records so you're bound to hear them anyway). I'm also filming a documentary on the ping-pong match that caused the end of the persian gulf war...sound interesting? ask me all about it... But now, it is way past my bedtime...goodnight all... - jeffrey Current Mood: lonely Current Music: cold and all alone - mxpx

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January 23rd, 2004

11:53 pm Good evening ladies and gents, and welcome to another evening of ramblings by yours truly. Despite today being my day off, it got off to a rather early start (10 am on a day off...yeah...pretty early). I woke up, ran a lil, got a shower, then headed off to meet dave, steve, and don at the el-queen-o. Our stay was cut a bit short, since it was already quarter til 12 and the Butterfly Effect (which was kick-fucking-ass btw) started at 12:05. But anyway, yes...the butterfly effect...kick ass film. I honestly didn't think it was going to be as great as it was, but the suprise was nothing short of pleasant. After the movie, I went to work to pick up my check and make sure my boss was going to give me 2/14-16 off. She did...and that made my day! Now I can make concrete plans to go to DC to see Laur. Yay! ...back to the task at hand... As I sit here with nothing else to do besides listen to music and be alone with my thoughts...I've realized that Laur has been putting up with me for well over 6 months. I know we had decided to not worry about the dates and such, but I just marvel at the fact that I've been lucky enough to spend 6 months of my life with the greatest girl that I've ever met...I'm in awe. I know...I'm a dork...what can I say... Seriously though, I notice one thing...that I measure time in two different ways now: in time that I spend with her, and in time that I'm away from her...and you've guessed it - the time spent away seems like an eternity, while the time spent together never lasts long enough. long story short...I want to see her...boo. Will and Nick should be arriving home shortly (if I hadn't mentioned before, they left for texas about 2 weeks ago and are just now coming home). Anyway, we decided not to hang out tonight, since they're probably beat from driving straight through over the past two nights, So I figured I'd let 'em sleep. Hopefully with those guys being back, and the new semester starting, things should really start to chin-up. Hopefully... Ok all, time to hit the hay...and hit it hard I will... - jeffrey "Every line that bleeds from this pen carries with it a thought of you. A memory, or just the simple feeling that no matter what I do, you're with me, in my mind and in my heart."---js Current Mood: grateful Current Music: your sweet legacy - js

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January 20th, 2004

11:39 pm - brrr.... just to let you all know...it's pretty cold right at my computer (which is so conveniently located next to my window---what genius placement right)? Other than that though, today was a decent day...uneventful yet decent. I can almost say that I'm ready for the spring semester to begin...it will give me something to do! God...I can't believe I'm actually typing these words...On a lighter note...(duh duh duh), I'm continuing my daily workout ritual, and have lost 5 pounds to date (go me)! Work was boring as shit...I did just about nothing (if that), and just pretty much sat around waiting for 9 pm to arrive. And here I am...updating my livejournal and doing little to nothing else. I just can't get over the fact that it is freezing cold right here near my window, but if I walk 3 steps to the right, I can attain warmth again...it's eerie. Anyway, I guess I've bored the masses long enough with this detailed description of what would call one of the "plainest" days ever. Good night all...hopefully better things tomorrow will hold...if not...I'll read a book or something...haha...'nite ---jeffrey Current Mood: cold Current Music: hidden in plainview - twenty below

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January 19th, 2004

11:25 pm - do I really need one? Today has been a rather good day... I didn't have to work, so I had a lot of free time on my hands - which is starting to serve as a double-edged sword (I have tons of free time but nothing interesting to occupy it with). I miss my Laur and cannot wait until the next time I lay eyes upon her! My band broke up---haha... :::cue the emotional music::: I can't understand why things like that happen to me---we get started and our sound was like...great...but then certain people play certain games and it's like..."dude, we're not in high school anymore..." But whatever, it is what it is, right? I'm waiting for an acceptance letter from GMU so I can make a further decision on where I will be next fall. Things are starting to seem like they're falling into place...and I like it. I like the way things are...except for the fact that my Laur is still so far away and I have to wait damn near a month before I can see her...but it's cool...the time I spend with her is always worth the wait. Other than that, no more exciting happenings over in the world of me. At least now I'm able to post on LJ since it's no longer acting like a homosexual. Yay for that. ---'til next time... ===*note to self - tell my parents they need to fix this fucking keyboard thing on our computer desk because the motherfucker keeps falling off...piece of shit.... ===jeffrey Current Mood: excited Current Music: 100 days---shades apart

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03:34 pm - ok....enough of this... Ok...I posted like two gimongous posts the other night and then now I just try it - and it works! Grrrrr...oh well...it works now...I'll post later I suppose... - jeffrey Current Mood: annoyed

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03:32 pm - duh... I hate livejournal...the last two posts I've made, not including this one, have not shown up on my livejournal page....maybe it will work this time...we'll see... Current Mood: aggravated

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November 20th, 2003

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11:26 pm - Fuck livejournal... And Fuck my fucking computer cos I just posted and it was like really funny and partially important but my aol sucks ass and....just fuck it all man. Fuck. ---jeffrey Current Mood: angry Current Music: "Fuck Livejournal"- - - me

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November 16th, 2003

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